It sounds so… permanent. Right?
Well, it is permanent, because Graves’ Disease is an auto-immune disorder. It’s confusing, it’s scary, it’s tough when you have a “flare up” and it can be downright deterring to do anything.
All you have is your support group, your knowledge and your power to see what is. Let me help you with this and see if you can understand what I mean:
Thoughts become things.
I love this saying (and thank you to Mike Dooley for sharing it). What kind of things can our thoughts become, you ask? I found that they can become negative and unruly, that they’ll make you feel like you’re lost in your own body and doing this whole journey alone. They can make you feel isolated and depressed… and I know. I’ve dealt with the symptoms so I know how it feels. Dear heaven above, do I ever! The things is – I REFUSE to let it get me down. Truly.
When I was first diagnosed with Graves’ disease, I scoured the web to find like-minded folks going through the same situation. I found them, but when I reached out to them I was met with negativity, warnings and anger. I can’t blame anyone for their own feelings, after all this was their journey and they were only sharing with me from their current situation, but I didn’t want to be a part of it.
It wasn’t that I couldn’t empathize – I could and only too well as many of you can understand. For me and my story, all I knew was that everything was about to change in my world. I was going to have to let go of things and begin a new path and way of life. I was saying good-bye to stressors that came in the form of certain work, activities and had to let go of responsibilities in order to get my health together. I just didn’t want the negative. Why?
Thoughts. Become. Things.
Do you see the pattern? I needed to find the positive so I created my own support group of friends and family members, a doctor I could trust and found a way to manage work I could handle. Without my support group by my side, reminding me I was going to be okay, without their patience and love grounding me when I flail (not only then, but even now), I don’t think I would have been able to get out of bed. I communicated where I was in my head or with my disease and my support crew was right there – always with a smile and an uplifting word.
Don’t get me wrong – I am not a unicorn who can shoot fairy dust from its snout and walks on golden rays of sunshine. There were (are) hurdles and on the days I wanted to be negative, that I tried to spit fire from my mouth and shot rage from my fingertips those same friends/family members would help me see where I was being irrational and would lift me up.
This is what I want to be for YOU. For you who just found out you have Graves’ Disease or a thryoid issue – maybe Hoshimoto’s, please come say hello. I crave positive and I know you do, too. Part of Graves’ is dealing with our stress and to hear the negative constantly (like when someone is having a “battle” with their thyroid) it doesn’t do us and our minds any favors! I like to say I have a relationship with my Graves’ and with my thyroid. Makes me feel like we’re in it together.
Our Thoughts Together Can Become The Most Beautiful Things.
Let’s shift the thought process together. Tell me your story, and I will share mine with you. It’s been a roller coaster but it’s been MY roller coaster and it brought me to the HERE. Right now, writing this note to you. I’ve just come out of a 2-3 week flare up and I’m here to tell you that I’m still standing. I’m smiling as I type because I feel like at least one person may read this and understand.
Open your soul and let it pour out. I’m listening.
XO – Anne